little girl with the crumbling iron wall

Here I am.

I tried so hard to protect myself,

to keep my heart safe,

to be a good little girl,

to put up that wall and keep it there.

I tried so hard.

I thought I needed that wall for protection.

I thought I needed to guard myself from hurting.

I thought I needed to prevent myself from getting broken.

I thought I needed to stop feeling so vulnerable and uncomfortable.

or so I thought.

There I was with my iron wall,

which I trusted to protect me,

not knowing it was only made of straw.

There I was thinking I was made of steel or something,

like nothing could penetrate this girl.

But there I was, being completely wrong.

My wall did not keep out the hurt,

It kept out You.

YOU protect me.

YOU are the solace for my heart.

YOU are my iron wall.

It is in You, and You alone, I place my trust.